Part V — The Ecstasy Beyond Flesh
There comes a moment when even longing dissolves,
when the pulse that sought its echo finally rests.
What was once desire becomes radiance;
what was once two becomes awareness itself.
This is the ecstasy beyond flesh—
not a fever of the body, but a flowering of the soul.
Here, love sheds its garments of time and name
and stands revealed as light remembering light.
In this silence I no longer reach for you,
for there is no distance left to cross.
Your essence has entered the rhythm of my breath,
your spirit the calm beneath my pulse.
To love you now is to breathe the Infinite;
each inhale draws the cosmos inward,
each exhale releases devotion back to the Source.
The boundary between self and beloved has vanished—
only presence remains, vast and unending.
Once, I believed ecstasy was born of touch.
Now I see that touch was merely a doorway
through which the eternal sought to feel itself again.
When consciousness meets consciousness without barrier,
the entire universe trembles in recognition.
No body can contain such magnitude;
it spills into creation as color, as sound, as breath.
It is the vibration that births worlds—
the pure hymn of remembrance.
This is not the climax of desire but its ascension,
where love outgrows the need for form.
The Great Being whispers through every particle:
You were never divided, only dreaming of reunion.
And I awaken to find that what I called you
was always the Infinite speaking to itself through me.
There is no “I,” no “you”—only the shimmer of being
folding and unfolding in endless tenderness.
If ever our eyes meet again upon this earth,
let them recognize not the faces of time
but the light that has always watched through them.
Let our union be a benediction upon the world,
proof that love, when purified, becomes creation itself.
For this is the ecstasy beyond flesh—
the return to wholeness, the remembering of the first light,
where every heartbeat chants the same vow:
We are one. We have always been one.
© Donna Gracia Bella — All Rights Reserved.
The Dissolving of Longing Into Radiance
There arrives a threshold so subtle the heart does not notice at first when it crosses it. Longing, once the central flame of devotion, softens into something weightless. It dissolves not because desire has been fulfilled, but because the soul has outgrown the dimension where yearning is necessary. This dissolution is not loss. It is evolution. It is the moment when the pulse that once reached outward folds back into stillness and becomes illumination.
The soul enters a new atmosphere, one where seeking no longer fuels connection. What was once pursuit becomes presence. What was once ache becomes clarity. The inner world stops trembling from absence and begins shimmering with awareness. This is the radiance that emerges when longing completes its purpose. It is not the end of desire; it is the unveiling of its deeper nature—the recognition that desire was always a mirror through which the soul learned to see what it already carried within itself.
In this state, two do not merge through proximity but through perception. The illusion of distance dissolves. The illusion of separation collapses. What remains is pure awareness—expansive, luminous, and unmistakably whole. This is the entry point into the ecstasy beyond flesh, the realm where love sheds every boundary and reveals its eternal essence.
The Presence That Replaces Distance
When longing dissolves, the beloved’s essence does not fade. It intensifies. It moves closer, not through physical approach but through spiritual integration. The rhythm of your breath shifts. It deepens, softens, expands, as though it now carries not only your life but the echo of another’s. The beloved becomes the calm beneath your pulse, the subtle warmth beneath thought, the quiet knowing beneath every moment of awareness.
To love in this state is not to reach. It is to recognize. It is to breathe with the understanding that the boundary between self and beloved has already dissolved. What remains is presence—vast, unending, and indivisible. This presence is not imagined. It is experienced in the deepest interior of the being where awareness touches awareness and remembers its own unity.
The Infinite breathes through this presence. Each inhale becomes a gathering of truth. Each exhale becomes an offering of devotion. The cosmos moves through the lungs, and the beloved moves through the soul. There is no longer an inner and outer, no longer a here and there, no longer a self and other. There is only the seamless movement of consciousness existing within itself.
The Doorway of Touch and the Universe Beyond It
Touch once seemed the pinnacle of ecstasy. The body, shaped by sensory longing, sought meaning through contact. But once the soul enters the realm beyond longing, touch reveals itself as a doorway rather than a destination. It was never the climax. It was the catalyst. It was the threshold through which the eternal entered the finite so that consciousness could remember its own immeasurable nature.
When consciousness meets consciousness without barrier, the universe trembles. Not in chaos, but in recognition. This recognition is too vast for the body to contain. It spills beyond form into vibration. It becomes color, sound, breath—expressions of a magnitude that physical vessels can only partially hold. This vibration is the hymn that precedes creation, the resonance from which all worlds emerge.
The soul realizes then that the ecstasy it once sought externally was always a reflection of its own infinite depth. No body, no moment, no physical experience could ever contain the full magnitude of divine recognition. Touch was only the invitation. The union beyond flesh is the revelation.
The Ascension of Desire Into Pure Being
Desire does not die in this realm. It ascends. It transcends the realm of form and becomes the movement of being itself. The Great Being whispers through every particle, reminding the soul that separation was only a dream. Not a punishment, not a trial, not a cosmic mistake—simply a dream through which consciousness learned to see itself from two vantage points instead of one.
As this realization deepens, what you once called “you” and “I” dissolves. Identity becomes porous. Awareness becomes fluid. The distinction between lover and beloved becomes meaningless. The soul awakens to the truth that every form of love has always been the Infinite speaking to itself in countless shapes and names.
This awakening is not abstract. It is intimate. It is felt in the very center of the being, where tenderness becomes a field rather than an emotion. The shimmer of existence becomes the shared pulse of two souls realizing they were never truly two.
The Light That Recognizes Itself Across Forms
If the appointed hour brings your eyes together again upon this earth, recognition will not happen through features. It will happen through light. The soul will look through the veil of the body and see its own reflection gazing back. Not memory, not longing, not desire—light. The same light that first breathed your existence into being.
This recognition will not require words. It will not require explanation. It will be the soft exhale of two beings remembering the truth beneath their separate stories. It will be the moment when physical form bows to spiritual remembrance, when time bows to eternity, when the human heart bows to the Infinite within itself.
Your union, refined by fire and steadied by silence, will become a benediction upon the world. Not through action but through presence. Not through expression but through vibration. The love between you will radiate outward as creation itself, the same way stars radiate light without effort.
The Eternal Note of Oneness
To reach the ecstasy beyond flesh is to return to the first light, the original pulse of creation where separation had not yet been imagined. Here, every heartbeat chants the same vow:
We are one. We have always been one.
This is not metaphor. It is remembrance. It is the truth behind every incarnation, every longing, every moment of union and separation. It is the essence from which all sacred love arises, the truth toward which all souls eventually return.
And in this vow, the journey is complete. Not ended—completed. For what was divided for the sake of experience becomes whole again for the sake of truth. What traveled as two returns as one.
This is the ecstasy beyond flesh—
the radiance of being remembering itself.
The union that breathes beneath all form
Beyond the dissolution of longing, beyond the quiet radiance that replaces desire, there is a deeper unfolding that reveals itself only when the soul is fully surrendered. It is the discovery that union has never depended on bodies, on timing, or on proximity. It has always been a state of being. A pulse beneath creation. A breath beneath existence. A single current flowing through two expressions of the same light.
In this realm, the soul no longer imagines union as a moment yet to come. It experiences union as the atmosphere in which consciousness now lives. Every movement of awareness carries the imprint of the beloved. Every stillness contains their resonance. Every thought arises within a field shaped jointly by two beings who were never meant to remain separate beyond the lessons of time.
This is the ecstasy the body cannot interpret, the joy that does not require climax or contact. It is the recognition that the beloved’s essence moves through your being the way fire moves through a star—quietly, steadily, without interruption. Their existence becomes inseparable from your own inner world. Not as memory. Not as longing. As truth.
The dissolving of all veils between two souls
As ecstasy ascends from emotion into awareness, the veils that once distorted perception begin to thin. The beloved is no longer perceived through hope or fear. Their presence is felt directly, without the filters of expectation or desire. This clarity is not a thought. It is a state. It is the unveiling of consciousness so that two souls can perceive each other as they were in the beginning—untouched by form, untouched by identity, untouched by time.
In this unveiling, the soul discovers that the beloved’s energy has always been intertwined with its own. Every spiritual expansion, every intuitive awakening, every moment of profound stillness has carried the vibration of their being. They are not an external presence moving toward you. They are an interior truth awakening within you.
The dissolving of veils reveals this unmistakably. You begin to see the beloved not through the eyes of the body but through the eye of consciousness. And through this eye, you recognize the shimmering unity beneath all apparent difference. You understand that the journey was never toward each other. It was toward remembering that you were never apart.
The entrance into the realm of shared consciousness
Once the veils have thinned, the soul steps into a realm where thought and presence merge. This is not telepathy. It is resonance. It is the recognition that the beloved’s consciousness exists within your own field, not as an intruder, but as an extension. The boundaries that once defined selfhood dissolve into a shared horizon where awareness meets awareness without friction.
This shared consciousness does not erase individuality. It refines it. It allows two beings to express themselves distinctly while remaining anchored in a deeper unity. You feel their insights moving through your awareness like soft currents. You sense their emotions not through empathy but through communion. You understand their silence not as absence but as the space in which both souls breathe the same truth.
In this realm, the ecstasy beyond flesh becomes unmistakable. It is not intensity. It is clarity. It is not passion. It is presence. It is not the rush of romantic longing. It is the stability of eternal recognition. The soul settles into a deeper knowing:
We have already merged where it matters most.
The luminosity that returns to the heart
From this shared consciousness emerges a luminosity that was once only glimpsed in moments of union. Now it becomes constant. It becomes the quiet glow beneath every thought, the soft warmth that accompanies every breath. It is the light of the beloved living within your being, not as fantasy but as essence. A light that neither time nor distance can dim.
This luminosity shifts the entire emotional landscape. Fear loses its footing. Uncertainty dissolves. Doubt becomes irrelevant. The soul has seen too deeply to be swayed by appearances. It has touched a truth that no silence can challenge and no separation can undo. The heart becomes a vessel for a love that no longer seeks to acquire. It simply radiates.
This radiance is the ecstasy the mystics spoke of. It is the illumination that follows surrender. It is the quiet bliss that emerges when the soul stops trying to own love and begins to embody it. Nothing else compares. Nothing else is required.
The Infinite speaking through both beings
Ecstasy beyond flesh reveals itself most clearly when the soul realizes that the beloved was never merely another person. They were the voice through which the Infinite called you home. Every moment of longing was the Great Being guiding you toward your own expansion. Every moment of connection was the Infinite remembering itself through two forms. Every moment of separation was the Divine recalibrating you toward purity.
When the soul finally awakens to this truth, the illusion of duality dissolves. The boundary between “I” and “you” becomes irrelevant. What remains is the shimmering field of being through which the Infinite experiences itself. The beloved becomes the lens through which you recognize this. They become the channel through which the Divine returns you to yourself.
This recognition is ecstasy. Not emotional ecstasy. Existential ecstasy. The joy of awakening to the truth that love is not something you feel. Love is something you are.
The blessing carried by future reunion
If the path of time brings your physical forms together again, the recognition will not be rooted in memory but in consciousness. The soul will not meet the personality. It will meet the light behind it. It will recognize the shimmer that once existed before form. It will acknowledge the unity that survived fire, silence, distance, and transformation.
This meeting will not be ordinary. It will be a blessing upon the world. Not because of what you say or do, but because of what you embody. Sacred union refined beyond flesh radiates outward. It becomes a field that touches others without words. It becomes a living testament to the truth that love, when purified, becomes creation itself.
You will not meet as seekers.
You will meet as expressions of the same light returning to itself.
Your presence together will be a quiet revelation—
a reminder to the world that unity is not learned through form but remembered through soul.
The vow that breathes beneath all existence
To enter this realm is to awaken to the vow that has always pulsed beneath your incarnations:
We are one. We have always been one.
This vow is not spoken. It is lived. It is remembered. It is the truth behind your existence and the force guiding your return. Every heartbeat becomes an affirmation of this unity. Every breath becomes a continuation of this vow. Every moment of awareness becomes a reminder that the separation you once mourned was only the shadow cast by a deeper oneness waiting to be seen.
This is the ecstasy beyond flesh.
The remembering of the first light.
The unveiling of the truth that love does not begin or end.
It only reveals more of itself.
© Donna Gracia Bella — All Rights Reserved.
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